Colloidal Silver

OK, so I think this is going to kick my butt! Started with one Tablespoon yesterday evening. I did have some air hunger last night, but felt OK otherwise. Took dose #2 this morning after oil pulling. Then I took our daughter to school for a one on one screening thing with the teacher that they are doing for Kindergarteners.

I started feeling weird, but I reasoned that I'd only eaten some raisens, and maybe that was why. Stopped at the store on the way home and was feeling very 'floaty'. I told my husband, "there is NO way I could be herxing already from 2 T of Colloidal Silver!"

My head feels achy, temp 99.1, feel cold, shaky, ect. You have got to be kidding me!!??

I'm either full of the spirochetes after 13 years or my immune system vamps up when it sees the DNA floating around.

This is really giving me hope though...I wonder how much I truely forget what 'normal' feels like.

I may be in for a wonderful surprise!!!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Well, I haven't done any treatment in almost 4 weeks. Well, I did start oil pulling, taking extra virgin coconut oil and barley grass powder (yuck!).

I've been OK. Not great, not horrible. Had a few pretty good days this month. I read The Shack last weekend, it was really really good.


Last week my right knee started bothering me. It's been off and on. It hurts to straighten it at all and bending it too fast hurts. It's the patella that is most affected. It did OK when we went to Cedar Point this past Sunday.

I had no heart palps at Cedar Point compared to last year...my heart was jumping all over and I remember that I just kept berating myself telling myself that it was just anxiety...all in my head.

How horrible that for YEARS I've been permitted to believe that this was all in my head. It amazes me that when someone has a panic attack, INSTANTLY they are labeled as 'a worrier' or just 'being anxious'.

I know other people who never had a panic attack in their LIFE until Lyme came and corrupted them. I know I never had. Life used to be fun and exciting....not when Lyme is in the picture.

Reading on Lyme.net last fall was absolutely amazing to me...people who had been through exactly what I had been through...who understood the horribleness of Lyme. It was nothing short of amazing.

I'm at a crossroads right now....I know that the cold laser helps, but 30 seconds knocks me flat for weeks...I am thinking of restarting the Doxy and slowly knocking it down and then doing the laser/rife to get rid of it as best I can.

I haven't met anyone who didn't use abx first...so I just don't know if it is the best way to go or not. At the same time, I don't want my liver to get shot either with long term abx therapy.

It looks like I'm just going to have to take a gamble.

Sigh....

Wednesday, Aug 12, 2009

Well, I haven't rifed yet. I'm so afraid it's going to mess with my heart. I will do it though. I got my house cleaned yesterday so I can be out of commission so to speak for the next several days.

I started oil pulling yesterday and took Barley grass powder. I oil pulled this morning, but haven't taken the barley grass yet...I hate it!

I took coconut oil last night...thought I was gonna throw up! I love coconut and like the oil, but for some reason, it was too much yesterday, not sure what is up with that.

Feeling some psych type stuff, like anxiety and just feeling weird. I also had weird dreams last night...dreamed my brother accidently killed someone...yuck! I hate waking up like that.

I am going to make a collage of why I need to get well...why the herxing is worth it. I was thinking yesterday that on Sept 12 is when I went to see Dr. Harris in CA last year. One whole YEAR of my life has GONE. Yes I have improved some...but not like I would have if I'd just done something...although I didn't find out it was Lyme until Oct when my tests came back positive.

Not sure if I'm going to try colloidal silver or rife today...we are going to a few stores later...so I can't do anything until after we get back as I'm not sure how I will feel.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Well, last Fri I felt pretty decent. A little tired, but better. Sat was OK, more tired, but I was able to pull some weeds outside. Yesterday we went up to Huron, Ohio (where we want to move next!) and waded in Lake Erie as it was in the 90's and HUMID! Got some sun and went to visit hubby's parents for several hours. Spent the night at my mom's (husband went home as he had to work today). Was very tired today. Very tired. Headache tonight. My body just feels spent. I slept almost 10 hours last night too.

I wanted to rife today but with how crappy I was feeling, I didn't know if my body could handle any more today.

Hoping tomorrow is kinder on my body...not sure if the heat did me in or what!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Well...I did feel a lot better today. The morning was a little rough, temp was 99 around 11 am and I didn't take it again later. Started feeling better around 4 or 5 pm though. My legs are just slightly sore today, I can walk upstairs without too much pain...yesterday I had to hold onto things to get up and down. James and I went to Kroger last night at 10:30 pm. He wanted kettle chips. We went in and started walking to one of the entrance doors.

James was like, "Oh wait that door might be closed now since it's past 10". I stopped and asked him to go look. It was about 15 feet away, but I literally did not want to waste any energy to walk the extra 30 feet. Walking straight legged helped with the pain. I was thinking that the people in the store probably thought I was drunk or on drugs or something, lol. I also had my pj's on. We were not in there very long, but I felt pretty crappy there.

Thank goodness I felt human somewhat today.

Muscle twitches were a lot better too. No headache today, hurray!!!!!

No bone pain or neck pain. Eye floaters haven't seemed too bothersome either.

I pray that I have turned the corner on this herx...I need to get myself to bed to sleep though, so my body can keep getting crud out and detoxifying.

Wed, August 5, 2009..This is a herx that never ends...

Yes it goes on and on my friend. One day I used the laser and not knowing how I'd feel, and now this herx keeps going on and on and on...

Ugh! I'm getting sick of this one day feeling pretty decent and the next terrible! Yesterday we went to visit my brother and later a friend. We brought the EMEM machine to my brother's for him to try. Although I went outside, I was just outside with just a glass door between the rife...and about 30 ft. I could hear it for about 30 seconds until I went further outside. So I have no idea if I got 'hit' with the rife or not.

I sweated through my clothes last night. Woke up with a horrible headache today and my legs are sore today. Thankfully my parents have the kids today so that I can just rest.

Herx City!

OK, today has been a very rough day. Last night around 2 am I woke up feeling icky...still had the headache/neckache, but I felt anxious and exhausted. I got up and drank a large glass of water and sat on the couch. Our kitty, Layla jumped up with me to keep me company which I was ever grateful for.

I tried to go back to sleep about 2 hours later, but kept getting a 'shot' of adrenaline every time I exhaled. I've never had that before, it was bizarre. Also, the anxiety I had last night was uncomfortable, but not 'please take me to the ER I'm gonna die' type. I somehow fell asleep again around 5 am and woke up around 8:30. I'm tired!

I still have that adrenaline thing going on too with the breathing, but not every time I breathe, but often enough to be annoying!

Feel kind of achy today, exhausted, neck/head ache, deep bone pain in my rt fingers earlier, temp 99.4


I believe I can evaluate that the cold laser DOES kill Lyme though!

I just want to be done with this yuckiness already.

Fortunately, my husband will be done working soon so I can get some help with the kids.

I've drank a TON of water today too, trying to flush out the toxins.

Also had lack of appetite today, had 3 apples with peanut butter and a little bit of Asian Coleslaw but that's it and I'm not real hungry. Fortunately the weight that I gained in June and July has stayed on me, so it's OK if I don't eat a lot if I don't feel like it today.

August 1, 2009 Herx and Tooth Issues

Ick ick ick!

Woke up this morning with fast heartbeat. Technically I don't think it was tachycardic, but in the high 80's or 90'sm my pulse is generally in the 50's.

I tried to ignore it, told myself this happened last time, ect. Tried to deep breathe, but my body was forced to compensate for the increased heart rate.

Drank a glass of water, laid back down, heart wouldn't knock it off, so I got up and sat on the couch until it resumed back to normal.

It was 6:30 am, so no one was up with me. I did not feel a sense of dread like a panic attack, I can tell the difference between. I believe that because the body heals at night and lymph nodes are working/draining, ect...my body was overloaded with toxins and the heart was trying to get them out.

Also got the deep bone pain again laying in bed, not for as long though as yesterday.

Sigh...I'm writing so I can look back on this next week when I'm feeling much better and remember what I went through to get here and the next time I do the laser I can read it and know that it's just a herx.

No idea if I have a temp today, didn't check...didn't feel like I had one earlier, but I'm feeling more like I'm 'floating', so I probably have it back. We have lots to do around the house and I really have no energy to do it at all...trying to get our house ready to sell and also need to get a loan to consolodate debt....

Did I mention that I figured out that I have a failed root canal in my molar? Yeah...when I bite on it, feels like there is glass inside way down in the bone. The dentist in 2005 told me I needed to have it redone, showed me x-rays where there is a dark circle at end of root.

It didn't hurt then, but it's been hurting for a while now....terrified of dentists and we've already used our max amount on dentist insurance (we have $1500 per family, but when I took our girls for a routine cleaning, it was over $200 and hubby had several cavities).

I also need my wisdom teeth out...so I want to be put under 'twilight sedation'...still scared to do that but I know that an infected tooth can only hurt me in my fight against the Lyme!